Tuesday, February 26, 2008

My Pear and Frangipane Tart

Let's talk about that 'voice' in our heads. Have you noticed that it never shuts up? I'm talking about that voice that told you that your Date hasn't called because he's avoiding you. He's avoiding you because you're not 'his type'. You are not 'his type' because you are a little on the heavy side. And you shouldn't have had dessert - it made you look like a glutton after that rich T-bone with the fried shallot and peppercorn cream sauce. Maybe you should have had a salad instead. And no dessert. That dress sure didn't help - it's just not you. He was friendlier the first time you met and you were wearing that comfy old pair of jeans with the lime green top. That dress just made you look like a 'try-hard'. It also made your calves look chunky. Oh, and that T-bone! $46! What were you thinking? This was your first date and you whacked him with an expensive main course! Why would he call you? He thinks you're a Gold Digger. You should have split the bill. And what was that comment you made about him moving back home? You made him sound like a 'Mommy's Boy'. Great Job ! You sure did yourself in! Why on earth would you..

That voice in your head SHOULD SHUT UP ALREADY! Aren't you miserable enough? How many times have we allowed that 'voice' in our heads to ruin our day? Our week? Shape us into who we are today even? We spend most our lives interpreting other's words and actions or the lack of words and action thereof towards us. We let the 'voice' in our heads govern how we feel, decide the course of action for each and every circumstance in our lives. Why is this so? It's because we are afraid. We are afraid of 'looking bad'. We are worried about what others MIGHT think of us. I used the word 'might' because we are not a 100% sure whether what we think others are thinking of us are accurate. It's all Guess work if you will. Still, we have allowed this Guess work to dictate our lives. We quit our jobs because of it. We are estranged from our parents for 20 years because of it. We end our marriages because of it. Bad experiences in our lives are very often designed by ourselves through what we PERCEIVE to be true. Those bad experiences in turn CONSTRAINTS us from actually LIVING our lives. We become 'by standers' in our own lives toying with the possibilities of 'what if's', 'should have's', 'could have's'..

Ming and I attended a Seminar over the weekend. No. Correction - I attended the first day and gave up, while Ming finished the 3 day course. I'm not here to make excuses for myself. I will say however that I am glad that Ming completed the course and was able to share with me what I had missed. The Seminar was an 'enquiry' of what it is that is stopping us from achieving what we want in life. What is it that is holding us back. This Seminar's (that I will not name) methodology is the believe that once we recognize the constraints in our lives and deal with them, we free ourselves to embrace our dreams.

On the second day of the seminar, Ming came home, cupped my face with his hands, looked me in the eyes and said;

"Do you know that I Love you?
Do you know that I don't care what the whole world thinks of me, but I care what you think of me?
I'm sorry for all the times that I misinterpreted what you said to me and we fought because of it. I know that you Love me and that everything that you've ever said to me was said out of love,concern and at times to protect me. From now on, I will take in everything that you say as an opinion without being defensive. Ok?"

All the time Ming was talking, I just kept nodding, my eyes wide in disbelieve. I didn't want to say anything and ruin the moment. He could have been SO LUCKY that night but we stayed up and talked about the seminar and how in our own relationship, we have been self-inflicted victims of the 'voice' in our heads. So many times in my own life, I have put aside my dreams because of FEAR. Fear of people judging me, fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of looking bad. Today, I present my Frangipane Tart to you, braving judgement, rejection and the possibility of looking bad. Why? just as an exercise I guess, because I wasn't going to feature it in the first place. Don't get me wrong, it was delicious, but I didn't like the photos. I guess amongst other things, I'm trying to learn to cut myself some slack too.

Pear and Frangipane Tart
Serves 6-8
Takes 50 minutes to make and 1 hour 15-20 minutes to bake, plus chilling and cooling

For the pastry
225g plain flour, plus extra for dusting
110g butter
110g caster sugar
3 medium egg yolks, lightly beaten

For the frangipane
125g butter, softened
125g caster sugar
2 eggs
125g ground almonds
1 tbsp plain flour

For the poached pears
250g caster sugar, plus 2 tsp extra
4 good-sized pears
1 cinnamon stick, broken in half
3 cloves
1/2 lemon
2-3 strips thickly pared orange zest
1/2 vanilla pod

1. Make the pastry. Tip the flour onto a work surface. Cut the butter into cubes and dot over the flour. Sprinkle with the caster sugar. Using your fingertips, rub the butter, flour and sugar together until the mixture resembles breadcrumbs. Make a well in the centre, add the egg yolks and, using your fingers, gradually draw in the flour. Knead lightly, until it comes together in a smooth ball – you might need to add 1 teaspoon cold water if the dough is very crumbly. Wrap in cling film and chill for at least 30 minutes. You will need a 23 x 2.5cm round, deep, fluted, loose-bottomed flan tin for this tart.

2. Make the frangipane filling. Cream the butter and sugar together in a large bowl until light and fluffy. Gradually beat in the eggs, one at a time, then fold in the ground almonds and flour. Mix well and chill until needed.

3. Make the poached pears. Put the sugar in a saucepan, pour in 500ml water and place over a medium heat. Stir until the sugar has dissolved. Peel the pears and add to the pan, along with the cinnamon and cloves. Squeeze the juice from the lemon into the pan and add the squeezed lemon and orange zest. Split the vanilla pod in half, scrape out the seeds and add to the pan with the pod. Add some more water to just cover the pears.

4. Cut out a circle of baking paper large enough to fit inside the pan, and lay on top of the pears. Weigh down with a saucer or small saucepan lid so that the pears stay submerged in the poaching liquor. Simmer for 20 minutes, then remove the pears to a plate with a slotted spoon and discard the liquor and solids. Set aside for 15 minutes, or until cool enough to handle.

5. Preheat the oven to 190°C/fan170°C/gas 5. On a lightly floured work surface, roll out the pastry to a circle large enough to line the tart tin. Don’t worry if it breaks up, as this is a very short, crumbly pastry – you can just patch it together in the tin and mould it up the sides, making sure it is even all over. Trim off any excess pastry and spread the frangipane evenly on top.

6. Cut the pears in half lengthways and, using a teaspoon, scoop out and discard the core from the centre. Cut each pear half in slices, widthways, then lift onto your knife and push down on the pears slightly to fan them out. Lift into the pastry case and arrange in a circle. Fill in the gaps between each pear half with a few more slices and arrange some in the centre. Bake for 55 minutes to 1 hour, until the pastry is golden and the filling is set. Sprinkle with the extra 2 teaspoons caster sugar and bake in the oven for a further 15 minutes to finish off the browning. Cool in the tin slightly, then remove and transfer to a wire rack. Serve warm or at room temperature with a dollop of crème fraîche.

On another note, I'm submitting my Little Lemon Meringue cakes as an entry into Jugalbandi's February 08 Click event entitled 'Flour'. Thanks Jai and Bee, you rock!

I leave you with an insight into the fate of this tortured soul..

You can't call her, not after looking like an idiot, a cheap idiot too! How could you have exceeded your credit limit? What could be more embarrassing on a first date? What a dork! She must think you're broke too, moving back home! Too late now to wonder what could have been.


Happy cook said...

I love this tart. They are delicious.
I've bookmarked for trying them.

Elaine said...

OK. I love your blog.

Love your writing!

Anonymous said...

wowww ur cakess really gorgeouss! :D
hi carol, im irene, i just read ur msg in my blog ehheh and yes finally i meet u too! heauheu...sorry its been a long time that i didnt open my blog.
nice 2 meet u too carol...hope 2 see u sometime @ church! :D

GBU -renz-

Brilynn said...

I can't believe you would consider not showing us this tart, it looks phenomenal! That damned voice...

Big Boys Oven said...

This tart of yours is really a tart, why? . . . so sexy, juicy, looks provocatively lovely and delicous yummy! How can we resist this one!

Belinda said...

OMG Carol - I'll be over in a flash!!! Pear and Frangipane Tart is my absolute FAVOURITE...and your photos, as always, are brilliant and mouthwatering. Let's catch up after my wedding - I want to hear about your seminar experience. I'm glad you got something out of the first day :o)

Aran Goyoaga said...

The voice of self doubt in your head... I have that too trust me! All of those things you said I have felt. But I love this tart!

Patricia Scarpin said...

Carol, this post is so inspirational!

I'm glad you posted this tart - it looks amazing and so do the photos. And I really mean it!

singairishgirl said...

I think the tart looks great. Maybe you're just a perfectionist? :P

daphne said...

oh carol! I would love to dig my fork into this tart. It's great-and u r being too harsh on yourself.
and how sweet is the conversation u had with your husband. =)

Robo said...

Wah! Nice pictures! And it make mouth watery!!

Miri said...

It's the second time that reading your posts brings tears to my eyes. You write it all so beautifully! And the tart looks just great!

Dhanggit said...

this is a beautiful combination Carol frangipane and tart!!.. really really delicious!! as always stunning photos and lovely writing :-)

Nora B. said...

Hi Carol,
You said all the things that I say to my patients who worry too much about what people MIGHT think (social phobia). And even if they really did think whatever it is that you think they are thinking, does it really matter in the big picture?

A terrific piece, Carol & I'm glad that Ming got so much out of the seminar.

This tart, by the way, in case you are wondering about what I am thinking(ha ha), is gorgeous! My only complain is that all your delicious photos makes me crave for desserts all the time.

x Nora

C i n T a P o P i a * said...

gosh, carol. i know exactly what u're talking about. i think so many times in my life i'm worried about how others perceived me.. u know, trying really hard to make them happy, to please them and to impress them at times.

the result of it? i'm exhausted, frustrated, and angry. i think i need that seminar. HAHA.

well done, truly my favorite post from you so far.. and that tartt.. GIMME!!!!!


tigerfish said...

Oh, is it one of those "self-help" seminars? Geez...I think seeing your tart is therapeutic enough for me :)
Oh well, maybe I shd be the one who needs this lesson - how can I cross my "baking" barrier? :O

It's really a lovely tart. The thought of frangipane is so lovely.

You know, I just had a conversation with the "voice" in my head too! HA!

Kate / Kajal said...

I'm yet to try a frangipane tart. This looks so beautiful, i cant resist trying it this weekend.

Irene said...

What a wonderful post, and so true. As I get closer to 30, I'm starting to think that life is just too short for those doubts and rejection (or the possibility of) is not as scary as it was before. Anyway, lovely tart. I made pear and frangipane tartlets last week, so I can definitely vouch for the deliciousness (is that even a word?) of that combination!

Passionate baker...& beyond said...

Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful! I'll go woth Elaine...love your blog & loved the write-up. I would vote for you in Flour!!

Passionate baker...& beyond said...

Oops sorry, me again. You definitely belong to the Mini Pie Revolution...do head for their HQs if you find time!

Jade said...


M a new gal in the blog. =)

Your pear and frangipane tart
looks just absolutely gorgeous!

Ming the Merciless said...

What wonderful advice, Carol! I agree with you, we all need to cut ourselves some slack sometimes.

The pear and frangipane tart looks delicious. There is a Russian grocery store near my apartment that sells different kinds of fruit tarts with frangipane fillings. And they are soooo delicious.

Your photography is spectacular, as usual.

sandhya said...

First time here... You have a beautiful blog.. delicious tart.. will surely try them....

joy said...

I was just thinking you could make a living being a photo designer or whatever they call it! And then reading later on that you weren't happy with the photos :) But they are gorgeous. And I bet even more so. I could use two of those for my birthday party this March :)

Tell Ming I said that more men should be like him!


Kok said...

Can I help myself with the tart? hehe.

Anthony said...

Wow! Lovely :-)

Eloquine said...

The pictures were so beautiful, I needed to try it as soon as I got back from school. I just ate a piece of it, and ... it is DELICIOUS . Thanks for the recipe. I bookmarked your blog, and will be visiting it soon. Yummy

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